Am I an awful person?

Why do you keep pulling the “no friends” card?

If you keep saying you have no friends, why don’t you just talk to them then? Why don’t you just hang out with them then?

No, I don’t really like them. Why? Because we can’t get along the same way you and I do. I’m different from them. I’m different from you. I’m also sensitive to certain situations, so yes, they’re not really my favourite people. Think about the amount of times my feelings were hurt because of them… I don’t want to surround myself with that kind of negativity.

If you want to be friends with them, then absolutely go for it. But I can’t promise you how I would react towards you on some of those days you decide to hang out with them.

I know they’re your friends, but I do hate what you become around them. And it makes me wonder if that’s just who you truly are, and you’re just trying to suppress this side of you to keep me in your life.

Do you love me that much that you’re willing to cut them out of your life for my sake? Am I really that worth it to not speak to the friends you’ve grown up with anymore?

It feels like I’m not any way, since you keep pulling the “no friends” card. Every few months it’s, “It’s okay, I have no friends.” and that honestly hurts me, whether you joke around about it or not. I know you don’t talk to them anymore. I know you miss them. But you can’t always have the best of both worlds… I do what I need to do for myself too.

I know it’s not really a great feeling to have, but maybe you’d be better off or happier without me since my presence affects your friendships this much.